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[12 Dec 2004|09:34pm] |
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Christmas is in less than two weeks and I have no shopping done.
And the Unwritten Law show was supposed to be on Tuesday, not Friday.
But it's cancelled.
I had a good and bad weekend.
Friday was bad. Getting bitched at and screamed at and called names by drunk people isn't exactly a fun situation to be in.
Especially if they're your friends.
Saturday night was fun.
Sue slept over.
Now sucks because I am bored with nothing to do.
Ever feel like you don't have any close friends...AT ALL? As in the ones where you know you're going to be with them every weekend, or at least a lot, and if you have nothing to do at least you know there is nothing to do together? And the ones where you can talk to anything about or go to advice for? Then you realize it's not just a feeling that it's just a big. fucking. truth?
Not too high on the happy-go-lucky scale right now so excuse me while I go fuck off.
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[09 Dec 2004|02:50pm] |
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| still doing psychology |
[08 Dec 2004|11:20am] |
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Happy birthday to me.
I live in a zoo.
I look like a monkey.
And I smell like one too.
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[30 Nov 2004|04:29pm] |
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So...I have my driver's permit.
PS: I desperatley need to go a diet of some sort.
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| This really doesn't have a point |
[28 Nov 2004|02:15pm] |
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I really want the new U2 cd.
I'm bored and I have nothing to do today. I am supposed to be reading that book to get my permit but instead I am listening to U2 in my basement. Check out how cool I am. But I do really need to read it. I hate Septa and having to walk everywhere. I was at Frankford Terminal until 11:45 last night. >:| Fuckerrrrrs.
My birthday is next Wednesday! I am going to be seventeen! :O creepy.
I ate soooo much today and I just woke up like, two hours ago. I really really need to go on a diet.
I think I am going to go steal music off of the internet because I feel like listening to Tool. later.
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| Yep, I love this icon. |
[27 Nov 2004|10:19am] |
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Yesterday was sooooo much fun. There were many times I laughed so hard and almost pissed my pants.
Yesterday, was the Thanksgiving friends dinner type thing. I brought pie...but so did Mick and Maryrose, those homewreckers. Ming brought drinks, Tara cooked a turkey and mashed potatoes (pronounced: mash-edd poe-tat-toes), and Candice did everything else, even Mac n Cheese. hah. So everyone came over lalala, I spilled my whole cup of iced tea before dinner even started. Go me. We were laughing about how much of a barbarian Tara is with the turkey. She kept stabbing it with this big ass pitch fork and knife. Then we finally finished dinner. Then came the pie with whipped cream and everyone got whipped cream all over them in a big whipped cream battle. Candice got it the worst because we let all of the air out of the can and Ming poured all of the cream in his hand and slammed it in her face. haha. Then we started throwing pixi sticks at each other and then somehow this all out war broke out between everyone. I got squirted in the face with Febreeze and ran upstairs with Mick. She grabbed babypowder from the bathroom and I grabbed shaving cream. :X We snuck up behind Ming, and Mick threw a bunch of baby powder all of him and I got alll of this shaving cream in his hair. He was like "oh, baby powder....real nice guys....AH! IT'S WET WHY IS IT WET! OH FUCK....shaving cream?" hahaha. It was so amusing. Then we started telling ghost stories to each other and got so freaked out and I had to go home and sleep by myself! But yes, was a very fun night.
Now I have to go to the Philadelphia Library so I can look up research on Borderline Personality Disorder for my AP Psych paper. Later.
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| "You're just jealous 'cause we're young and in love." |
[26 Nov 2004|04:32pm] |
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Brand New - Soco Amaretto Lime |
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Today is long and boring! Damnit.
Um...what happened so far this week...Wednesday was Spirit Day at school and I got the biggest headache from all of the girls screaming. It didn't go away for like, three friggin hours. Then after that I went to Mike's house and we were there for awhile, we went to go get food, then later we left to go play pool with a few of our friends. On our way to the pool hall we got robbed. Well, Mike, Andrew, and Roofer did, but for some reason the guy didn't ask me for money. It didn't affect me badly because I was just so damn relieved everyone was alright because the guy had a gun. So after that we had to go to the police station for about and hour and a half. I was in the back of a police car! haha. Those seats are really uncomfortable. So we filed a police report, finished there, then we still went to play pool. I need to practice more because I suck so bad again. I was starting to get good over the summer too! Yesterday was Turkey Day and it was okay. I didn't say anything at the dinner table though. It was me, my mom, my borhter, and one of our neighbors who is really old and has no family so my mom and Richard were talking to him the whole time trying to make him feel welcome. The food was good though! Then Mike came over for awhile and he left with Joe at like, 12:30. The end.
So today I was supposed to go to the movies with Rin but we changed that to tomorrow so more people can go. I'm kind of excited because I haven't hung out with her since sophomore year and I get to hang out with Tasha and Danielle too so it's all good.
Tonight is the thanksgiving dinner over Candice's with all of our friends. It is going to be fun. There are sooooooooo many people going it is insane. I am bringing pie! I have three but I am saving one here for me and Mike. :) Bes greedy. I love pumpkin pie.
Yes, I love Brand New and I missed them.
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[21 Nov 2004|05:33pm] |
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I need to stop playing with fire.
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[20 Nov 2004|09:23am] |
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The past day and a half were awful and were literally spent in nonstop tears. The relationship that I have with my mother is far from civilized. Although, sometimes we are able to hold a conversation. I just talked to her for about twenty minutes and she didn't yell at me. First time that happened in more than a month. Now, I need to go out and get a white shirt for the play with her. Let's all hope that goes well.
Anyway, tonight is the second showing of the play. I am more excited this time around because all of my friends will be there including Mike. I hope they're not bored throughout the whole thing. :\ Last night, the second act was terrible. If the fucking director would've taken the time to practice the second act it wouldn't have been as bad. But no, she would always go through the first act and by the time she got to the second, practice would end. But was she intelligent and started the second act first at the next practice? No. How fucking dumb can you be..
So, I am in a better mood than yesterday. Besides the fact that I woke up at 8:45 >:|
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[18 Nov 2004|10:07am] |
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Ahahaha. Sleepaway Camp is officially the funniest movie. Nothing better than transvestite murderers.
All of Bridge's posters fell off of her wall and I swore that it was a dream...and they're sitting right here. whoa.
I have to leave for school in an hour and I don't feel like it. Damn eighth graders and their visitation days.
edit: I got second honors, almost first if it wasn't for the 80 in AP Psych. Holy crap.
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| I don't wanna grow up 'cause I'm a Toys 'R Us Kid. |
[09 Nov 2004|08:24pm] |
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The whole college process is just a big box of stress with torn wrapping paper. I hate it, I really do.
I am 70% sure that I want to stay in the city because I really do adore Philadelphia, but there is this yearning to get out of my house just nawing at the back of my brain. I've been rather observant lately and I've noticed that I am never happy when I am home, never (unless of course my brother is here but he is here for about ten minutes a week so this fact does not count). When I am out with my friends, in school, or even when I am alone by myself, I am a completely different person then when I am with the presence of my mother in my house. Even just speaking to her can drive me to insanity. The woman is quote unquote "the biggest pessimistic bitch I will ever encounter." I don't understand how she thinks let alone even ATTEMPT to comprehend what I am trying to explain to her most of the time. She just...ruins my selfesteem COMPLETELY. It's like she is wearing steeltoed boots and is repeatedly kicking my self esteem square in the balls, and it is laying on the ground struggling to get back up and when it is finally on its feet again, here comes the almighty ball kicker to kick it the fuck back down. I, emotionally, cannot stand living here. It really just...breaks me over and over again and I can't handle that. I must cry over myself because of her about, four out of the seven days of the week. I mean, I always do say that I am a happier person now because I am, it's just that she'll ruin it for me a lot of times.
So, with the whole "going-away-to-colege" factor...I don't know what I want to do. I am pretty sure I am attending Temple University, if they accept me, because it is pretty much in the middle of my home city (which I love) and the campus is beautiful. And not to mention, it is a great school. Then, I can hopefully get my own apartment in a few years because as soon as I get a job, I am saving like crazy. Maybe I can go half with someone, but I won't even attempt to plan that now because whenever I plan something that far in the future, something always comes along and changes my plans. Basically, it is just a hopeful suggestion for myself. But, there still is a slight chance I may go to DeSales University. I really like the school. I visited it around three weeks ago. It is only an hour away from Philadelphia and I could drive home whenever I wanted. Only...they have no friggin' music program such as band or anything which is terrible, and it is in the middle of a CORN FIELD, A CORN FIELD, which is exactly why I mentioned coming home every weekend. I am really leaning towards the Temple stradegy but there is still a bit a doubt in there. I am just really indecisive and it is a pain.
Sum everything up...this entire process sucks.
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[08 Nov 2004|10:55pm] |
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Just because my voice isn't the one at the front of the line, doesn't mean my heart isn't the one winning.
I need to catch up on my poetry.
I feel sick. Goddamned Renzi's.
Harvest dance this Friday. Hot damn.
We are starting landscape paintings in Art Class tomorrow. I am extremely excited. I am bringing in this one in. It's dark, so of course, I love it. I can't wait, I can't wait.
I think I am going to sleep because I am really tired. I had a pretty fucking bad day today in school too. But after school was fun and cheered me up a lot. :)
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| An update-o |
[07 Nov 2004|09:31pm] |
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I had such a fun weekend.
I got to see Pants on Friday!!! Sorry I forgot to bring your birthday present with me. I left it in my room. Promise I'll give it to you next time. But, the both of us slept over Candice's and it was sooo much fun.
I got my outfit for Harvest Dance today. :)
AAAnd, I am excited about tomorrow because I get to see Mike. I haven't seen him since Thursday. I know it's not that long but we never usually spend more than a day apart so it is odd. haha. It was five months on Wenesday. :D
Maloney is leaving for her cruise at 4:00. I hope she has an awesome time. I want my voodoo doll! She is bringing me one back! (Hopefully, if she can find one in Mexico.) Oh, and I am officially in love with her family. I wanted to keep them.
I have a Psychology assesment tomorrow. uhoh.
I bought a new pocket book! Holy shit. I haven't had a new one since freshmen year and it was so big, this new one is small as all hell. Oh man, it's so cool though.
It's so weird how optomistic I am anymore. This whole past month has just been awesome. My past two Octobers have sucked major ass but I adore life now, I really do...a complete opposite of what I would say this time last year. I'm just...so happy to be alive. Maybe I am just growing up.
I was wearing the "sticky fingers" gloves this weekend. It reminded me of Edd, Sue and Antrilli. Not Tasha and Mike though because they were non-conforming douchebags that day. haha.
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[29 Oct 2004|11:24pm] |
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I...am so sick.
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[28 Oct 2004|09:49pm] |
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My emotions and thoughts are so fucked up right now I can't even bring myself to tell a single soul about it.
This is the first time I've really listened to The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot by Brand New in about, five months, and I can't listen to it without crying...but I can't stop listening to it.
I hate that song, and I hate my memories, and I hate how I've been reminded of everything lately, and I hate how it's been constantly on my mind. I really, really do.
I've been lying to myself all along...
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[26 Oct 2004|08:24pm] |
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I had a mixed day, but I am in a good mood.
I woke up crying again because of my knee. I realy wish I knew what was wrong with it. It's been like this off and on for about nine years. The doctor told me I just need exercise but I exercised plenty as a kid and that's when it hurt most. I even got it X-rayed a few years ago and I don't know what's wrong with it. At least it doesn't hurt as often as it used to or as long, just when it does, it's a fucking bitch. But it feels alright now so it is all good.
While we're still on the health issue, my friend my have cancer and I am really worried about her. We were talking about it on the way home from school today. Her next appointment is tomorrow to find out if the tumors are cancerous or not. I really hope they're not.
I dyed my hair today and I love it! I think it looks awesome. When I walked in my house my mom told me I look like shit but fuck her 'cause I like it. :)
Off to due a paper that was due yesterday. Procrastination..how I loathe thee. hah.
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| My mood says chipper. hahahaha. I am too easily amused. |
[25 Oct 2004|02:54pm] |
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I had a very good day today. It was the same usual stuff but I was just in an awesome mood and I have been since yesterday.
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is the best movie. I saw it for the first time yesterday since in the theatre and I love it even more. It is my favorite love story because it really portrays a real relationship in the movie. It's not like your regular fake-on-screen-love-bullshit. And the acting is fantastic. I love Jim Carrey in this movie, he is amazing.
I ditched band to go shopping for my halloween costume. Yep, I have no idea what I want to be yet. Procrastination much? What is everyone doing for Halloween? I don't have anything to do yet. :\ I actually really want to walk around with the trick-or-treaters because I am just THAT cool. Oh yeah. haha. Anyone care to join me?
Oh yeah, go HERE. I've known about it for awhile but I don't think I've shown many people yet. It is the funniest thing. You need to know the story of Romeo and Juliet to really appreciate it though.
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| good times, good times |
[23 Oct 2004|11:54pm] |
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I had such a fun night.
Edd, Sue, Tasha, Antrilli, Mike, and myself, all went down to South Street. We were supposed to go to that haunted thing at the Wachovia Specturm but it was sold out so we just went to South Street. It was fun. Mike bought me a rose for no reason. I love it when he randomly does things like that out of no where for me. :)
We are all the "Sticky Bandits," except Mike and Tasha because they didn't buy cool gloves like us where the fingertips are cut out. We are led by "Sticky Fingers" (Antrilli). Aren't we cool the cool ones.
Okay, that's it. I think I am going to go read Slaughterhouse Five because I've had the book forever and I never got to read it because I was always worried about reading something else.
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| ew, I'm up way too early |
[13 Oct 2004|09:13am] |
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I got my class ring last night. :')
I was so nervous all day about playing because I had to play in band for the mass. I think I did pretty good on the song I was worried about though. I didn't mess up at all. :) It was a nice ceremony and I really like my ring now. I thought it was the ugliest thing when I first got it because I think they're all ugly but it grew on me.
Fred, CJ, Joe, and Mike were there. :) I was so happy they were all there, especially Mike. I really didn't think it would be a big deal but I really appreciate it that he went and I felt so much better when I saw him there. My brother and my mom went too which I was also happy about. My brother always makes me laugh at things like this. My dad went, but he left after Communion. :\ I won't go into how I feel about that.
Then my mom, Richard, Jessica, her mom Donna, Mike and myself all went to Applebees. It was so fun, my brother is the best person to be around because he is such a dork and it is hilarious. When we walked in, Richard comes out of nowhere and was like "Barb spelled backwards is Brab!" ahahaha. I almost died. And that was only one of the retarded things he did/said. I love my brother.
But overall it was an awesome night and I really do like my ring. This is so creepy though! I remember going in as a freshmen thinking how far away being a senior is and it's here already! Ah.
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| I have such a bad feeling. |
[10 Oct 2004|02:59pm] |
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Please, oh please, let tonight go well. Please let her have fun and not feel weird because more of my friends are going now then her friends.
If she has a bad time tonight I am going to feel like absolute shit because I will know why.
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